Chaz Meyers (cpm) wrote,
Chaz Meyers

wow. it's been 5 days? what? huh?

I remember when I used to write here every day. Sometimes more than once a day.

I'd like to think that was because then I had no life and now I do, but I know it's probably that I just have less to write about. Ha!

This week has been majorly non-productive. I write a few lines every few days, and then get bored and do something else. I need to finish my entire backlog of work tomorrow. But I've said that before, haven't I?

I can't decide if I need a break from classes with labs or if I need to rethink what I'm doing here. In the past, I've liked programming classes the most, but lately.. eh. I'm tempted to drop all my comp sci for next semester and do all cores. Almost all my credits are comp sci at this point, after all. I wonder if I remember how to write a paper. Maybe I'm getting bothered that no matter what I do, I probably won't be creating anything unique? That I will be using well researched solutions to timeless problems, and my job will be just the application of the correct algorythm. The right peg for the right hole.

I'm guessing that last sentence is complete bull since that thought just struck me as I was typing this out. Although, chances are I read something to that effect and stored it somewhere in the back of my head so it could resurface now. Which backs that whole bit up. This probably sounds more melodramatic than I mean.

Girls never cease to confuse me. I think people confuse me more, though. Individuals confuse me too, of course. Normally when making generalizations I seperate people and individuals, but not in this case. I've always blamed this on how I don't socialize well and am easily intimidated by people, but I think I'm starting to realize that I don't understand myself either. Perhaps it's inherrent of the species. And maybe this is more typical than I assume.

The above doesn't really have any bearing on anything going on in my life. I tend to contemplate things that have no bearing on my life.

I'm not unhappy. It probably sounds like I am, but I'm not. So, perish the thought.

Ay and I went out and saw a beautiful apartment which is absolutely great in every possible way. I hope Mike and Bitner agree. The rest of the day was spent running around and doing paperwork. I got to meet crazyray for a bit, which was interesting, and Aymon and I broke our oath to stay away from fatty General Tso's.

Does anyone actually look back at their older entries? I wonder if in a year I'll be more interested in the stream of babbling I have in the upper 80% of this post or the two sentences describing the motions I went through today.
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